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MaY i AsK????CaN aNyOnE eVeR ToLeRaTe iF TheIr MuM iS BeInG LooK DoWn oR eVeN CriTiSiZe AbT Ur MuM....???No MaTTeR HoW BaD Ur MuM iS....pLz TrUsT Me TaT If Ur MuM Is sOmeOne BaD pLz ThiNk...WaT MaKeS HeR To Be BaD????It DoEs SuRe HaVe a REaSON FOR ThaT aTTiTuDe...Be iT EveN iF iT Is Ur FreNs OR OThEr ppL WhO DoEs TaT To uR MuM Or EveN ThE One u LoVe MOsT aNd ThOuGHt oF BeiNg WITH OnE DaY In ThE FuTuRe,CaN u ToLeRaTe ThAt???*CrIeS*
LeTs NoT TaLK aBt ThIs.....It MaKeS Me FeeL LiKe a UsELeSS DaUGhTeR....


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i aPPrEaCiaTe WaT FreNs doNe FoR Me...AnD TheY DesErVe SoMe ResPecT FroM Me...FreNs FrOm SkooL Or OuTsIdE....WATEVER THEY'VE DONE FOR ME HAD HELPED ME ALOT...